It was 1 AM, and I was lying in bed awake wanting to fall asleep so that morning would come, and I could tell Luke about all the things that had just happened in Lila Land, but he was an unmoving corpse next to me, and I was awake with a buzzing mind.

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He had walked upstairs several hours before to the soft melody of my voice telling him that I would be up soon after making a few more modifications to my website. Working on it has become even more of an obsession since it was suspended from my original hosting provider for my “Pussy Love” post. It seems that each obstacle only digs my heels in deeper. Yes, I will do this despite the costs and the risks.

The resurrected version that has sprung from the ashes of my overly explicit demise is better, more beautiful; however, my creative mind can’t stop thinking about all the little details I still want to fine tune, and I can get lost for hours in a vortex of creativity and problem solving. 

So I stayed downstairs wearing nothing but big fuzzy socks and one of Luke’s long sleeve thermal shirts. In the midst of working on my header, I jumped over to my neglected Only Fans page to check in; I’ve kept it around as a way to accept tips, but I moved away from using it at the very beginning of my plunge into seduction when I discovered they have a list of banned words, and you know how much I love using my words.

In my inbox were two messages: one from a new person who later that night would end up subscribing, and one from a recent subscriber on my website, who, as you will see, taught me about a whole new layer of kink that I had not known existed. With his permission, the following is an excerpt of our conversation.

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Does the Divine Goddess Lila of words and illustrations accept requests for cock rates in her domain? ??

Hey there, I’m not sure what you mean by that question. Can you explain more?

My apologies! Does the queen do cock rates? As in charge the fans a certain price if the fan wants you to see a picture of their cock and wants you to give your honest opinion about it and rate their cock on a scale of 1 to 10?

Oh, I see. I’ve never heard of that. Shoot, I could be rich if I knew I could charge for such a thing. I’ve gotten so many cock pictures. 😀 What is a typical rate for such a thing?

Well the rule of thumb is that content creators on this app have a baseline price and boundaries for each type of content that they know fans will ask for. Cock rates I have seen have been as low as $5 and as high as $350 because a group of individuals do them together. Some fans enjoy getting degraded in them. Some fans want video cock rates where they want to see the content creator wear specific attire or nothing at all. Some fans want to just feel good about themselves. Some fans just want to know the opinion of a goddess. 🙂 It all comes down to what you feel is fare to charge for your opinion goddess 🙂

Oh yeah. Unsolicited pictures? Should get blocked. But once again. You’re the ruler of your domain goddess 🙂

And what do you feel is a fair price for such services?

If I was to ask the queen for a video cock rate of what you think about my picture? Where you show only what you feel comfortable showing no matter how badly I want to see you naked? I’d pay you $100 goddess. ?

So, you show me your cock and I record a video of my reaction to it? Are you on video or do you send me a picture? And, as my business is in need of funds, and I also have no problem looking at the beauty of the male body, I am not opposed to this.

Yup! You got the concept. You can set the rules whether you accept live videos or pictures. In nearly all instances I’ve seen, pictures were the only accepted media to be sent in for the rate. And the payment is always sent first, and then the picture after! Saves your time from being wasted. Always set that boundary of price up front! You’re the business woman and we are the fan coming to you for the service goddess.

I sent you a $100.00 tip. One cock rate please. Do I have permission to send you the pictures to rate? ??

I accept that rate. I think that it’s fair. You can send the picture. However, I would like to make the video tomorrow. I will wear some lingerie for you, and it will be easier to make the video when I’m refreshed and ready.

I think this is going to be fun.

Maybe, with your permission, I could even write a post about the experience of being asked such a thing and fulfilling the request. It’s so new to me. I didn’t know this existed. This journey of sexual exploration is so fun and interesting.

You take your dear sweet time. You’re under no obligation to be on a time crunch queen. You do it how you please, when you please. I am a fan of you through your content. So I know I will be enamored ??? You’re more than welcome to write about this experience! Every thought that comes to mind! goddess 🙂

Thank you. I’m going to save opening the picture until tomorrow when I do the rating. That way my reaction will be fresh. 🙂

Is there any type of thoughts in particular that you want?

Rating it on a scale of 1 to 10. Whether it is to your preference or not. What you think of the, length, the girth, the gr00ming, recommendation you have to improve its overall attraction level. And if it really hits all of your preferences? What you would want to do with it if it was in your presence! BUT that last intimate expression is only if it is to your preference. If it isn’t? Then it’s just the length, girth, gr00ming, and suggestions for improvement. 🙂

Excellent, thank you for clarifying the assignment. I will enjoy going through this experience.

Some content creators do ask to differentiate between whether a fan wants a 100% honest cock rate, a “feel good” cock rate where the expressed desirability is overinflated to caress the fan’s ego, or a degrading rate because that’s their kink. And then establish different rates for different fates if you will. Why different rates? Because some creators feel more comfortable giving that validation, some feel more anxious degrading someone, so they charge according to their own comfort zones. 🙂

I’m assuming I’m your first official cock rate request on this site, so I’ll tell you now that a lot of others will not pay as much as I did for a rate. I paid a rate based on the divinity you carry and how I value you and your time where it was also affordable for me. Others are not so keen on being as careful with respecting your value and time goddess. But I hope I’m sincerely proven wrong and you’re flooded with fans with fat pockets! 🙂

Thank you for all this information. I’m enjoying learning something new, and I also appreciate your generosity. That was a beautiful tip, and I do appreciate that rate, and the potential story your Goddess might be able to spin from the new experience you’ve gifted me with. But for now, I must sleep.

Good Night, Mocha. Sleep well.

Good night, Goddess Lila.

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At 1 AM,  I found myself awake in bed. My wigglings and sighs woke Luke up. As he reached for me, I whispered that I couldn’t sleep. Warm arms circled around me as he scooted closer. 

“Why can’t you sleep?” I curled into him, a smile unseen in the dark gracing my face. 

“Did you know that people pay women to look at and rate their cocks?” I asked him – not waiting for a response before continuing. “It’s called a cock rate, and it’s the rate someone pays to have their cock rated. It’s a kink.” 

“Interesting,” was Luke’s response. 

“A subscriber asked me if I would rate his cock. He tipped me $100 to do it.” 

“And you’re going to do it?”

“Yeah, why not? It’s something new to explore.” A small wave of relaxation washed across me upon having gotten the first of my three updates out into the cool night air of our room. 

Luke ran his hands across my skin. As his finger slid toward my thighs to tease my pussy, I relaxed into the touch and told him my other burning updates, about getting a new subscriber and about a glitch that broke my website right before I was going to go to sleep. Instead of sleeping, I had spent 30 minutes fixing the issue before coming to bed to wiggle and wake him up.  

Luke kissed me and slid his fingers across the protruding lips of my pussy. He could see that my mind was thoroughly awake and that I needed to release some of that tension. He rolled and came on top of me, his cock hardening at this middle of the night sex we were about to have. We kissed and touched, his body waking up while mine calmed down. 

My burgundy painted fingers pulled my lips open as Luke pressed his cock on my pussy. Unlike the movies, penetration rarely happens “just like that.”  My ass cheeks often stick to his shaft making sliding in seamlessly impossible until moisture is brought out or lube is applied onto all of those external parts that tend to get caught. I reached down and grabbed his cock, dipping its tip in like a paint brush and then rubbing it around my vulva, bringing my nectar outward to ease the entry of him into me. With each dip, he entered me further, pushing toward my warm center. Our mouths locked in the dark, our tongues exploring and caressing. Our soundwaves danced together as the heat rose and our motions increased. Luke rolled, and I came up on top to ride him. I grabbed my phone and recorded a short little clip of our night. Those of you who reside on the inside of my project can listen to it ?.

It was 2:00 AM, and we finally tucked ourselves back in bed. This time, my body had released its tension, and my mind had shared its stories, and I was ready to sleep. 

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In the morning, Luke took our son to the farmer’s market, leaving me with some time to complete the promised cock rating, another new experience in a long line of firsts that venturing into the world of swinging and sexual exploration has offered up.

When we allow ourselves to objectively ask “what turns me on?” without judgment or asking “what should turn me on,” then a world of erotic possibilities can unfold. 

For my subscriber, having his cock rated – knowing that my eyes washed across his member and my mind formed an opinion about it – turns him on. 

For me, I enjoy being seductive, feeling the power of erotic persuasion that I can wield. I love teasing. Being submissive to the right dom makes me wet with arousal. I have better sex when I feel a connection and there’s been a nice amount of build up and anticipation. I love playing with words in an erotic way and building tension through sexting (and picture sharing, obviously) – these are just some of the things I’ve learned about myself, so far.  

And since I enjoy being a seductress, why not harness those skills to rate a cock, at least once, so I can add it to my list of “life is short, so fucking live it” activities.  

So I donned a sexy outfit and made a video and took some pictures, and those of you who have submitted* to this Divine Goddess Queen of Seduction ? can view them. 

(*With the exception of Master Jean. I know you submit to nobody. Your access is an inherent right of your position.?)